(names have been changed)
A sister in the mission just forwarded her email home and
the title made me laugh so I copied it.
Yeah so my heart is broken. Yesterday was an adventure for
sure. S May and I are definitely the best friends of the mission but
there is another set that is also best friends named S East and S Hanks. S Hanks and I have been out about the same time and S East and S May both
went home today so S Hanks and I got to be companions after we dropped them
off at the mission home last night. It was so funny becuase we were all four in
the same boat. S May and I were standing outside talking and President comes
out and says "I was wondering if you two were going to be separable!"
After we gave our last hugs goodbye the door closed and both S Hanks and I
freaked out haha. It was so good we had each other and knew exactly what the
other was going through. So we get home at night and start planning and get a
phone call from some sisters in S Hank's zone but it was actually S East and
S May calling us haha. So we switched off talking to our companions until
the phone ran out of battery.
Then this morning we get a phone call at 6:33, lights still
off, we're both still saying our prayers, from one of the APs and guess who it
was? Yep, S East and S May, on their way to the airport. We were laughing so
hard. We talked to them, all 4 of us, for their whole ride to the airport. Are
we all pathetic or what? Later S Hanshaw was like "That was the best 30
minutes of excersise time I've ever had." So right now S May is at home
with her family. Crazy right??
My new companion is S Jackson! She is super nice :) She came
out the transfer before me and was called as one of the brand new Sister
Training Leaders. S May said "If you get one of the new STLs you should
tell them, yeah, as STLs we go home at 8 instead of 9. We also get Sundays AND
Mondays off." Hahaha I was laughing so hard.
This week we had Zone Meeting and I gave the training on
repentance which I LOVED! I definitely needed it. I'm way too hard on myself,
like most people and I loved being able to testify that God wants to forgive
us. I was having kind of a hard day so I didn't feel fully prepared to train
(actually I hadn't prepared at all). But I got up there and just said "I
just want to tell all of you how much God loves you and please do more talking
than me because there is someone in this room who needs to hear your
testimony." And by someone I genuinely meant it because I meant me, but of
course I'm way too prideful to admit I'm having a bad day.
I learned more this week about the Atonement than I have in
a while. I learned that my Heavenly Father loves me so so so much and that my
Savior knows where I am and how I feel. You know what is cool? I have learned
to really appreciate the sacrament. As missionary, we have to be clean
and obedient to feel the spirit so we can teach with power and authority. By
the time Sunday comes again, I NEED that sacrament so I can restart. I have no
doubt that it works because it is a sacred ordinance of the Savior's gospel.
That is what I love about being a missionary, that I am changing, truly
changing! I want nothing more than to become like my Savior and I will go through
whatever it takes to get there.
I miss S May a lot but I need to forget about myself. I
know that S Jackson will be easy to love, what a blessing that we have to
interact and love so many of God's precious children! If I can just lose myself
in the work maybe my heart will stop being so broken. I would appreciate your
prayers, change is never easy but it is always good! Also, can I get some more
support from mi familia? I hear from 3 family members semi-consistently. Plus a
couple other people the email me fairly regularly but I really love you guys
and would appreciate talking to you more :)
Love you always!!!
Sister Knowlton
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